Next Time!

Yesterday I got off of work at 5:30pm I drive home thinking he would be there, well to my surprise he's not. He's not there, never even bothered to come home. I don't know what to do so I start to clean the house and then I decided to go to the store (BIG MISTAKE!) I ended up buying some groceries and some Chinese food ( you know since it's Friday) since I didn't want to cook. I spend $130.00 OH MY GOSH!!! When did the prices go up on Chinese food to $30.00? I mean that's ridiculous. So I drive back home and he's still not there. I sit down and have dinner all by myself and think how sad of me to want to move out and only to eat dinner all by my lonesome. Don't feel pithy for me, I don't need it. I need affection, attention, compassion, love, understanding and oh! Yeah did I mention attention? Well I do. I would love to get those things but again they are impossible possibilities. Well, maybe now I am speaking my language and you don't understand me. Ignore my comments, I make no sense only the sense that I would like some sensibility from the man who loves me, since love is such a pure thing that makes us go crazy, but then again aren't we all a little crazy at one point or another? I mean after all love is love, love can be anything we make of it, meaning that you can love many things but truly be in love with one person. For example my son.......How I love that boy! I still remember the first time I saw him, I fell in love with him, he was so tiny and so fragile that I didn't want anyone touching him. Now he's just crazy but I am still in love with him, and he knows that, I think that's why he's a brat! Another perfect example is my honey, at first I was very much infatuated with him, I wanted to be around him all the time I need to see him everyday, I needed to touch him, kiss him yadda, yadda, yadda...... And little by little his affections took part of me in a way that I couldn't control how I felt and I fell for him. It was love from that moment on. After that we didn't want to be with other people, we just wanted to be with each other all the time not caring what anybody else thought. Now we live together, have our own house and are still very much in love. Except for last night since I was by myself, got startled and went to my mom's house. I ended up spending the night there not caring if he would get mad at me or not. So I stayed there and this morning at 5:30am went home and of course to my surprise he was there asleep. Sleeping like if everything was peachy! What a jack! I mean seriously did he ever even bother to think about me and if I was ok? I just felt so betrayed and dumb founded. I mean I felt stupid, really really useless and insignificant. Anyway to make the story short, yes we made up and now I am at work making my hard cold cash, that no matter where I go it keeps me company, and keeps me warm. Until next time..........................